I can't guarantee that this is what you need or fear...

What is this thing you wear on top of your head? What did I do to the thing between your legs? I might have stitched it up and closed it Like your nostrils and your mouth… Why was our love a farce? And why are you alive and breathing While I endure? I demand an answer now Although we expulsed each other A long time ago Correct my tilt… My sanity was fed to a parasite So will be you and yours I can't guarantee That this is what you need Take this poison and Just end me Tell me.. What do you fear? I will make it even worse Your grace was meant to Breathe life into my wounded truth Yet what I feared was granted So I slaughtered what's inside me Show me the wales that I left around your neck And wear them with all pride That you're free to feel Now that I lie asleep Dormant yet restless Grievingly... Isn't it odd how the wolf is lying to himself? Shining, alive, a perfect fertile soil This tidal dawn was choked inside my coil And between monarchs and advocats The question of guilt dissolved But I know the truth: It was me and you Who crafted this hell I can't guarantee that this is what you need or fear This obscenity Preached by me

The very chain dwells inside my chest For it is one that I chain myself with Unharmed and unhindered The forces inside of us all thrive well QUARANTINE Alas, I just feel them procreating The fiendish world that we reside in Oh, don't forget to lock the door and smash the key I'm on the verge to kill Corrupted without knowing Who did all this to me Seeded with primitive destruction My body does not respond to commands It solely responds to this infestation Where's to find help They may not make it through another night From behind curtains, I hear them talk: „We've reached a point, it is safe to say That I would sell anything and anyone.“ How selfish! Disgusting! How very provoking to judge pity Helplessly armouring just in case... Scenarios, bypassing the symptoms of chaos Don't hesitate to watch from within the cage

Is it just me or do you seem numb? So faint and deaf, wait, is this a pun? Cause you are dead to me at any rate my dear Wait, that's not all, please just be patient A little more, we draw near the end The irony tastes better when it's meant for two Nervous veins indulge (in) my heart So it craves for an attack Your dead hand strangulates me Let me breathe for God's sake Step by step I acquaint with your frame I'll stab your voice, your cage and your chains I'll rob your soul, its host and your virginity Demons in my blood force me to do So please understand: I adore you But it's not like I could resist to... Greedy lips to consume me Carnal lust intertwines thee Ties me up violently Shakes my mind and those shards Oh! What a night to sing And what a night to share with you When dawn draws near our bed I lay down roses on your head The midnight orchestra Plays us a minuet I will savor this night until the very end A strangers violin Moves me to tears and I decay (Only with you… It's rotting… Consummate me…)

The garish day reveals about all of my secrets Its sultry eyes follow me around every corner Why do you crawl inside my daydream? I'm afraid of going to sleep As you threatened to chase after me Now that I am not even save in my dreams I'm left to die (and) The velvet night protects me The darkness embraces me And whispers gentle yet frantic words into my ears... Now you cannot creep into my nightmares! Again, I ask for nothing but rest yet find dread

Burned by the moon My Belladonna awaits its seizure A bed becomes my bier Conserved, I will be laced in dust This is an ecstasy I kindly refuse The Scent of a storm lingers outside the door And back in here I want to become your vital poison Behold, I will be the voice brushing down your spine Why would I explicitly welcome this abuse or torment? I shall crush those demons that shrouded themselves into hiding mist. How am I expected to survive in this hostile world? I am crushed by those demons shrouded in concealing mist. Your vital poison Like the precious Belladonna Sweet and enveloping Dancing veils of smoke blur my very field of vision How sleepy I am… I can no longer refuse their „helping hands“

I am the King and Queen Of this Haute Regime You pave the way To my throne I am the handmade King No one proves me wrong Disappearing grandchild How have you misbehaved? You will be locked away For a long time Oh, your mother is late She will pick you up here, Hush, don't make a sound That costs her life Your father was hanged here Your family is erased And so will be you If you think about Another misstep Another failure Another reason to give me I (We) cannot think of a reason To let you breathe the air Or dust that I (We) do all the time Second chances: A rare gift Displease me (Us) and you won't be forgiven I am Adam and Eve This is my Genesis I am Eris, the golden apple To the most iconic To the certain beauty To the one deceiving Everybody The war no one can win Is mine to begin And moreover mine To clean after I am the dictator I am the descendant I came from the Titans I am my own centerpiece I am this lands treasure Its megalomania And rightfully so I'm never beaten I am the King and Queen This is my Genesis You pave the way The golden…. I am Discordia I am… not insane When did they begin to Slip away that fast? It's making me dizzy Attack now… We have no time left We have no time left.. They are everywhere Where is my crown? Surround and then seize them What are you waiting for? They are weaklings and fools They are worthless and crude Choreografed hatred Earns me my applause I am depending on them to lose Anymore forgiven You will get what you deserve and Moreover forgotten Never remembered Nor redeemed „Après nous le déluge.“

The ugliness of tarnished innocence Who are you? Devils in bedside and White robes on sinners crossing eyes, say Is that what our eden was supposed to be? Spit on, chewed up and thrown out And now lovely embalmed Get out of my limbs, my mouth And my head________ As long as it's still on my neck And splintering with savage thoughts Of rupturing body mechanics And such of what you call innocent Now we are straying the streets, Feasting on their abandonment Yes it was us who scared you away But I have to ask „Who are we?“ Down with all you white clad demons with your mocking, dreadful Symbolisms, code words And, first and foremost, alarm(s) [SIRENS] Down with all you white clad demons Your taunting words have been heard enough of Yearning for you to finally leave me alone As long as my thoughts are not becoming stale Disguised as a normal, harmless inhabitant Of this realm that you like to refer to as „Perfectly uniform“ Hah.. (don't make me laugh)

When does this day come to an end? What lies beyond that? I have come to ask myself Forcefully, the sadness Thrives an grows more branches Dreary and entirely ugly Alternating between fears and shades Out to the fairest of them all, of them all This punishment follows me wherever I go Drown out the brightness that is giving me a headache Delusive and tempting I lay down my weapons Help… I am tired My shield crumbles apart Thrust your monarchy into me Dress me in silk and deliver me from pain I wish you'd have found something loveable about me Dedicated to you these words dwell inside me And when my time has come to face the guillotine Take out my heart and pierce it with silverware

Welcome… To this mere existence on our behalf This time for now I would love to show you around: Nothingness, ruinously overwhelming and rotting commonsense Sticking to us Our empty shells of human canvas painted by another artist Fearing that you gave my life continuity (acute directions), Purpose and a meaningful escapism Aimlessly I now roam the quiet frozen city Tiring at best, relentless above the rest To this day I am haunted Waking up feels like returning from the dead Breathing in feels like clawing nails into my lungs Repeatedly, lifelessly While you normally exist, I will be slowed down By disturbances that you just caused (Unfair? Accusatory?) The darkness that he brings is one That crawls beneath your skin and Piles up on top of your bones Morbidly evacuated actors, How the fuck did you get out of this damn place? Curse you, you healthiest of them all

What's next in this circus of absurdities? A clown who paints himself a grieving face All we do, grinning and baring ourselves To all of our attackers Masking as baits, Distracting ourselves, and Playing the dumb, innocent prey Is what seems the most accurate No, what we agreed on Was by far the better choice Becoming predators and stars Aspiring to be deceived In order to get fully healed Why do I feel incomplete without my pills? May dawn come over us again Let salvation and purity rain upon our faces As putrid as they are What we need is oblivion As well as some mercy Eyeing our dignity Or rather, what remained of it By all means… The nature of catastrophies Inflicting pain Trying to help in vain This might be a downward spiral We could be dead by nightfall Molesting with just our words Affected by waking up This desolate world The sun bled her boiling blood on the dirty sidewalks In the fire of your inner tundra my vitreous heart… You smashed it, now give me yours to devour. Disastrous and sear This once so fertile soil nourished our starving bodies Where have we been taken to in our sleep? Caress the wounds you used to strike The tidal dawn went unnoticed by our unwanted fight The sun bled her boiled blood on the sidewalks